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What a Joke.

A few days ago I was told that the people at HR (or whatever other department it is that looks into all this) say that sending people for training will “boost [staff] morale.”

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Since when?! Who did the study that came up with that conclusion? Nonsense.

I’ve never heard anyone say sincerely that they’re excited or happy or eager to go for training workshops. Especially not those that last for more than a few hours. Even just a two-hour session makes most people sigh in dismay… Those that go on and on for two, three, four, five days? Those just make people drag their feet to work and silently detest the upper levels who are convinced it’s helpful.

I have come to see pretty much all “training” stuff as nothing but money-sucking ventures and time-wasters. They charge high fees for good trainers, but even if you have a good trainer, if your audience is basically a captive slave audience – people who go because the bosses make them go one way or another, and this is the case about 95% of the time – then nothing is going to come of it because they don’t want to learn what the poor trainer is attempting to make them learn.

Sometimes I think I would really rather have a boring trainer than an enthusiastic one. The enthusiastic ones tend to make you try to play silly games or have group discussions (that don’t really go anywhere because most people don’t want to be there in the first place) and group presentations. I honestly do not like those activities at all. It’s all so fake and forced. I’d rather just let the trainer drone on so I can pretend to take notes but instead be doodling in my notebook.

I don’t think I had this attitude towards training workshops when I was in school. Leadership camp? Cool, let’s go. Youth group committee leadership retreat? Yay! Now… One-day training workshop? Ugh, wonder if I can develop diaorrhea on the day so I have an excuse to go hide in the toilet half the time. Training session for ABC? Greeeaat, here were go again.

I was pondering this difference in attitude and I think the main difference is: involvement and desire. When I was a teenager and involved in all sorts of school and church activities, it seemed useful to attend such things and I had friends who were also taking part. And I liked being involved. Now I’m much older and I’ve come to enjoy not being a leader at the workplace. Besides, I see all sorts of drawbacks to being a leader at the office – the only perk is a salary raise, but there are so many other negatives that it almost doesn’t seem worth it. I like having minimum involvement at the workplace. (I can see this admission being shocking to people…) There’s no payoff for me in being soooo involved in umpteen activities – so far it has just resulted in a tonne of stress for something I don’t care about in the first place. I’m much more keen on being involved in things I actually like doing. (So in a sense I can understand why my friends at a certain church are so willing to throw themselves heart and soul into the church activities – if it’s something you enjoy, it doesn’t feel like a burden and it’s rewarding.)

To me, work is just work. It gives me money which enables me to invest in things I like. People always say to find a job you’re passionate about, but you know what? Most of us will not be “passionate” about our jobs. Not all of us are that fortunate, or inclined to view our jobs that way. I’m okay with my job; I don’t hate it. And that’s fine. I’m already in a better place than people who utterly hate their jobs, and I’m grateful God has given me a job in a field I can tolerate. But just tolerating it means I find the endless training sessions irksome and a waste of time because I already spend at least a third of my time at home dealing with messages from students and grading work and preparing classes. So I find that asking me to dedicate whole days to workshops I don’t want to go to is… Annoying.

But what’s my passion? Hard to say. I don’t think I’m the kind of person who is generally “passionate” about things. (Well, maybe I’m passionate about drawing princesses and bunnies? hahaha) I like and enjoy a variety of things in varying degrees – art, reading, movies, immersing myself in fictional worlds like Middle-earth and Star Wars and One Piece, lindy hop, Disney (ok this one is a passion with me haha), London and Japan, musicals, the Avengers, looking at fashion (just looking, though, because I don’t have the figure for most of it), and so on. I like learning about these things because I enjoy them and it’s fun to know stuff about them. They’re not useful in my job, but as I’m not looking to become an associate dean or whatever. I’d rather avoid high positions, really. Looking at my colleagues who do hold such positions, I don’t think it would be at all good for me. My hair would probably start going white within a year or two of such a job.

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